TEATER MARHAEN.

men are the most complicated creature in this whole world.I SWEAR.

yesterday, i had a conversation with one of my best man (eh perempuan ada best man ke?haha),
and man...what's wrong with you guys?
we girls are not a commodity.
and you cant referring us to other girl like we are just another of your guy friends.
yes sure we are two different persons.different personalities.different lifestyle.
but we share a common hormones.PLEASE.

okay.i might be exaggerating.
kembali ke situasi NORMAL.
by NORMAL, i mean,DRAMA,TEATER MARHAEN kita..

bila saya kata bertunang itu renyah.consume masa.membazirkan uang.
lebih mudah kahwin di pejabat kadi sahaja (note : not the 'kami kena cekup khalwat maka kena kahwin sekarang' kind of wedding) but yeah.just a simple, really simple solemnization ceremony where all i should do just say 'i do', followed by a simple kenduri doa selamat...(ala-ala menikah oversea gitu)...saya dikata sebagai terlalu dipengaruh barat.too much little black dress books he thought.westerner katanya.dah belajar tinggi (tinggi lah sangat...) taknak pegang adat melayu lagi.bertunang tu kan adat nenek moyang.lebih sopan.another step to secure the girl u want heh..what the what???fine...

when i ask, the 'hantaran' for his respective significant other
he said, "adalah dalam (sekian-sekian),ok lah tu.kenduri kampung mana telan ribu-riban,grad diploma..ok lah tu kan?kan?"
to which i replied "so okaylah kalau aku nak mintak 18k untuk hantaran aku?"
"asal lak?"
"yela, aku grad (isi tempat kosong), aku pandai (isi skill orang puang), aku boleh (isi skill orang puang), and i can hand washed the whole family clothes (consist 15 pax) single handedly."
"kau ingat kau siti nurhaliza?erra fazira?MATERIALISTIK."
"wey,anak (isi tempat kosong), tu kerja (isi tempat kosong) pun dapat 15k tauu." (provok untuk meniup api)
"tu anak orang..lawa,putih,gebu.engkau! (okay.masukkan F word disini) tula kau,hantaran ni lazim je kau tau tak,yang wajib tu mas kahwin..belajar tinggi.sampai darjah khas, tu pun taktau (again.pfttt)"
"dah tu bertunang tu bukan lazim ke?adat?melayu katanya??"
him,facepalm.

okay.i might be exaggerating.

kembali ke situasi NORMAL.

by NORMAL, i mean,life,my normal life..

sekarang,saya baru discover salah satu kebolehan saya ialah kemahiran memprovok.(memprovok??) hahaha.

i ask my abah once, about how much hantaran he would ask if he were to marry me to man i choose.

to which he replied "abah bukan nak jual anak abah.."

suddenly i felt not all men are complicated, they just haven't reach my dad's phase of life yet..(camharomm grammar kau yen) 

note : musim mengawan kan sekarang?letih la kawan nak jawab takde calon.kawan nak sambung belajar lagi.paham tak?paham tak?? <------ (motip sangat nak isytihar takde calon.heh)

Etiquette

HA PADAN MUKA!
design pelik-pelik
kan dah kena design structure sendirik
PADAN MUKA KAU YEN YEN!!!
PADAN MUKA!
KAPOK!


oh ya.ada lagi satu nak kompelin dekat blog.
tuan-tuan,
cik-cik,
kakak-kakak,
adik-adik,

the first rule of dealing with professional firm, or company, corporate company ke apa tak kira lah..
u should address the person in charge with formal name, such as puan, cik, encik, takk kira lah kalau orang tu despatch je sekalipun di company itu.okay?jangan lah pakat redah masuk panggil "abang, nak company profile boleh?"ohoiii.we dont run our company that way sayang..saya tahu..kadang-kadang benda simple macam ni buat kita jadi menyampah..asal ntah pakat protokol segala kan?dulu time belajar pun i've been thru this kind of situation..so the best way is to learn okay...you dah third year kot!!next year nak graduate.bakal Surveyor siap!mesti mau belajar tata tertib, etiquette okay..first, call dulu the firm or company yg anda hendak    minta info itu.atau minta tolong.atau minta apa-apa sahaja,IMPORTANT. introduce yourself first..katakan anda dari sekian sekian sekian then baru cerita hajat di hati anda mahu menyunting bunga di taman teet (off topic haha) yelah..cakap hajat tu nak apa kan..nak drawing? nak company profile?nak mintak praktikal.or whatever lah...then if the other party say yes, baru anda boleh datang ke company itu bersama-sama your 'legal letter' dari lecturer, university, dean or whoever.faham tak?ini kita panggil appoinment, OKAY.
sekian kompelin saya.

sebenarnya tak ada kaitan pun nak kompelin.cuma kesian dekat budak-budak Alam Bina yang datang tadi.sebab hambek kau.main terjah je opis i.appoinment takde.call takde.kan kena 'halau'.nasib baik you dapat tukang halau tu i..cuba kena dengan bos kecik i..haa siap kena maki lah you.at least i try to help kan.tehehe.btw.

imisyu zaman belajar! :)
c u soon soona soona lah ye.InsyaAllah :)
(yeah you wish yen!)

Saya cakap..

Saya seorang yang mempunyai self esteem yang sangat rendah.sangat rendah as in, kalau pertama kali jumpa orang the first thing and the least thing yang saya akan buat cuma senyum.senyum sahaja.itu pun jika orang itu menunjukkan roman muka ramah kepada saya.kalau tidak memang i kata bolayan lah kau ingat kau lawa, kau kaya?kau tinggi ada aku heran?ada? (memang ada sebenarnya) hehe but that was then lah, masa baru-baru nak kenal dunia, masyarakat dan kehidupan sosial lebih mudah ayatnya, sekarang...better sedikit social skill saya.kini sudah boleh tersenyum dahulu, menegur 'hai', dan etcetera etcetera though the skeptical person in me is still intact.(rasanya lah..eh tak..memang lah masih)

Actually tak tahu pun kenapa benda tu i mean penyakit tu (low self esteem) boleh duduk dalam badan ni. maybe sebab i'm not an achiever kot..yelah masa membesar dulu mana ada pernah dapat nombor satu dalam kelas..tak pernah okay.okay lah..pernah.sekali jekot.tu pon sekolah agama..huhai!darjah 1 pulak tu.darjah-darjah, tingkatan-tingkatan lain tu memang pakat nombor belas-belas lah.takpun atas 5 bawah 10.favorite no 8.entah.seingat memang no 8 rajin lah lekat dalam buku rekod tu.

Naik pentas ambik hadiah kecemerlangan belajar pun tak pernah.naik ambik pingat syarahan ke.menang main catur ke.pun sama jugak.tak pernah.dulu orang belajar menari zapin pun tak pernah ikut, end up kaki tangan memang keras lah kalau suruh menari zapin tarian kebanggaan orang joho tuh.ehhe.saya orang batu pahat keturunan jawa.so boleh lah kot pengecualian eh?haha

Dekat sekolah dekat universiti pun i'm not a popular girl.bukan athlete.bukan top student. bukan si polan si polan pengerusi kelab sekian sekian.secret admirer.huh.jauhhhh lah sekali.comot sememeh serabai makdang.kulit muka minyak-minyak.celah mana orang nak suka.(gemok pulak tu peah!) haha.family pun average-average je.tak kaya.tak miskin.simple cakap normal lah.u got nothing to brag about or nothing for people to talk about (apa jenis ayat ni??).

So itulah sebab-sebab kenapa saya sakit low self esteem kot.(kottt) and haaa ada lagi, saya ni macam perempuan average yang totally average.average jane pun lagi okay kot sebab average jane selalu cantik kan.haha (omigod.i memanggg lah gila ape membebel-bebel nih??) saya ni macam orang tak kenal and kalau ada borak-borak dengan former schoolmates ke "oh izyan yang sekolah teknik tu dulu?err tapi tak ingat lah, dulu kelas apa eh." (kalau jadi tu mesti confidence level duummmm jatuh zero terus) oh, oh. ada kes paling teruk..tak malu pun tapi macam bengang sikit dengan orang tu sebab cakap kuat-kuat depan studiomates yang lain "oh nama kau izyan?kau batch aku eh?tak pernah nampak pun?" like...what the? i tau lah i tak lepak studio kan.tak fan-ass lecturer kan.tak design gempak dekan macam u kan.tak join majlis-majlis keraian bagai kan.oh please lah. (menyampah pulak bila ingat balik, i know he meant well) but. tolong lah weh.if i ave an effort to know your full name dengan bapak bagai..apeadahal kalau u tak tegur i macam tu depan studiomates yang lain.embarrassed okay.humiliated kalau i emo.seb bek i tak reti emo dengan orang baru kenal.kalau u tu bestfriend i..memang la..bertapa dewa kayangan lah emo 5 tahun dengan u. (oh sebenarnya i sound macam emo gila kan sebab membebel pasal hal ni je berpatah-patah perkataan)  boo diri sendiri yen.

Okay lagi. saya rasa saya ada penyakit ni pun sebab i've nothing special that i could do. i mean, saya boleh sketch.tapi sketch saya macam budak darjah 3. dulu my friends cakap my handwriting cantik.comel.now =( my handwriting are getting rusty.buruk gila!!dulu saya boleh lah nak menulis-nulis..mengarang-ngarang. sekarang!!!hampeh kau.i didn't write well hence there is no one read my blog (>.<) most of the time. saya macam fake.macam nak cerita yang best-best aje.kalau menulis je i try to potray me as if "i'm a good girl dude" not the real me yang bodoh-bodoh, suka control cun, gila-gila, pelik.bongek.haha! padahal dulu bukak blog sebab nak tulis pendapat pasal dunia dari kacamata sendiri (itu yang kepompong kupu-kupuku dulu) ngee :D

oh howw everything was changed.sedihnya.kadang-kadang kalau teringat the old me.and me myself and i sekarang pun rasa macam kesian.rasa macam kenapa dengan kau yen.apa susah sangat nak tegur orang?kalau dia kaya pun dia orang kan?kalau dia hensem pun dia orang kan?kalau she's drop dead gorgeous macam Angelina Jolie sekalipun.tu manusia kan?asal kejadian dia tanah macam you kan? tulah.kesian saya kan?

p/s :err motif sangat nak tulis macam ni eh

saya demam.
sebab johor bahru sejuk sangat.
badan saya tak dapat menampung kadar perubahan cuaca yang teruk ini.
tskkk mak :'(


saya nak makan char kuey teow
tak jumpa-jumpa dekat johor bahru ni
tskkk mak :'(

emo : saya dah gemok. :P

After Midnight-Yuna""""What Define Me as Friend

QUIET world of Mine..

what would you feel.
if you are alone                                                                                                                                          
at your rented place
A.L.O.N.E                                                                                                                                          

then.suddenly
there, a scratch, NO, a 'tok'
at your nikko windows
followed by a voice
husky voice
sound something like 'hoi'

SCARY eh.                                                                                                                                           (me)

what would you feel.
if you are alone
at your rented place
Surrounded by friends
But you are actually
A.L.O.N.E

then.suddenly
there, a piece of paper, no, some black fonts
at laptop screen
followed by a voice
your inner voice
sound something like 'run'

It felt WRONG.                                                                                                                                  (them)

Somehow i try to put my ugly toes in 'her' shoes
NO. 'their' shoes
:'(
frustrated.let alone ('their') self huh.
i personally think i was at fault too
i am such a selfish, ignorant, bad person
WORST. I wasn't a good friend
;(

we should.. NO. we must've been together
if i weren't too selfish.urghhh :(
i'm a bad person
i left'em :(

if there's anything i could do.
yes anything dear.(i know you know i meant you M & N)

oh i would give you a hint (anyone who doesn't get a clue )

but you've to sing this song first.

 

me,at the first place didn't know where did this guy got the guts to post this cover version of Yuna's song at Youtube.

does he think he's cute?i left it to you to answer that.

here the freaky lyrics.

yeah i'm gonna be your sweet innocent kidnapper tonight baby!

After midnight i shall kidnap you from the world
and i’ll keep you in my room
hush now my love and hold my hand
after midnight i shall take you to a place
where no one else should know of
hush now my love and hold my hand

you are exactly where you’re supposed to be
if anyone asks for you
they would have to find me

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

after midnight
i shall stay awake
and if you chose to close your eyes now
hush now my love
i’ll watch you sleep

you are exactly where you’re supposed to be
and if they come for you
they would have to fight me

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

source : TAMAN MALAYA

I'M  so sorry i weren't such a good friend to you guys

But I Love you..

and Hush Now My Love.and Hold My Hand

trust me

Hold My Hand.

Sexy.

though they said "Architect are the sexiest (men)"

source : http://wadias.in/site/arzan/blog/about/

yeah..they still brag about it tho this was like what..10 years ago?

:D (no offense my dear handsome archi friends.u guys still are err 'something' not sexayy to me)

there are really.i mean REALLY few things you have to consider before deciding to choose an architect as your life partner.

First : since they are the sexiest..they probably are still sexy after 20 years of blissful marriage with two children.Noted that ladies..because you may wake up one fine day to find that you are competing with a teenage girl who is doing her internship at your husband's firm.SCARY eh?not :)..

and you find that happen every now and then since his firm took intern every semester which equal to January intake.Jun intake.certain go for August intake and March intake..and that make you on guard's whole year long..eh perhaps for the whole life, SCARY eh?not :) 

Second : Its not 'really' a profitable job considering a Malaysian context and depend to who you work with..you know..small firms with small scale project things and big firm with mega scale project things does really happen okay.we're not doctors.and lawyers.our basic salary varies.usually according to our firms or location u work at.and oh yes,,experience does really count and play big role when u are an Architect.u got that?Architect..not a junior architect, draftsperson, technical assistant, internship students and yeah definitely not anything near assistant architect (eh,touching)..

              so,if you have prepare yourself mentally and physically for any "sayang,firm abang buat recession," . "baby, this month kita jimat-jimat sikit lah ye..takde projek, takde ot..so u faham kan?" . "keluar makan?ermm i tengah sesak lah.boleh.tapi u belanja ok (couples in love)"..please,i have dozens of single and free 'future architect' on the list :D

Third : This world..really are a though, cruel, money conscious, high self esteem world. No hearts at all (exaggerate). To survive you really have to. must be. STRONG.WISE.AND YEAH UNDERSTAND (eh, that seems like the characters of the partner not the architect haha) but more or less it still the same. Expect unexpected..commons : late night works, stress level of people at 40s when his actual age is only 27, pokai, he's always right and you're always wrong especially if you are Office Management graduate. (sad but true) 

oh yes, i didn't know why i must post this picture.really i didn't know why...

this is what architecture done to me :)

noted ladies : if your man is an architecture student he may get few accidents, due to his lack of sleeps, his tomorrow submission dates, his arrogant + snobbish lecturers who said his design is just a piece of crap, his studiomates think he is one crazy guy (okay exaggerating again).

so the conclusion is (eh feels like a standard 5 student essay) Architects ARE sexiest.but please, no,no, and no to those illusions you get from immoral Hollywood films. (eh?) hehe (The Lake House was fine.yes i'm bias because i love Keanu Reeves) we are not living in a comfort apartment house or a stylish modern design bungalow like the one you see in those stories.Yeah your man may design you a distinctive rustic cottage but wey, marry a businessman lah.He can buy you a land.with a bungalow.with pets like horses.a fully furnished and come with maid(s) too.How heaven does that sounds? Still..Architect ARE sexiest. :)

Your story.you choose.

So.Cikgu English.How is my grammar and vocab for my 500 words (sampai ker!) essay (preparation for MUET doh).Bad eh?Oh i really have to go back to school and learn

P/S:  this essay come out of my frustration because i'm suppose to color my Site Plan now.in my laptop but i forgot i left my 'mouse' at kampung and yeah.i couldn't find any spare time to buy it due to my hectic (ke pelamas...) lifestyle. 

SEKIAN.TAMMAT

Biskut Lemak dan Teh O

adat masyarakat jawa.kalau tamu datang berkunjung.hatta 5 minit bertanya khabar.sekali kaki menjejak ke dalam rumah.WAJIB di jamu makan waima sekadar biskut dan teh bujang.oh kami panggil 'wedang'.pronounce as wey.dang!!

haha cubaan pictorial entry pertama.

p/s: saya orang johor.saya emo.tapi saya bercakap atas pendapat diri..saya memaafkan Nor Azita Osman.kesian dia.hari ini hari dia.mana tahu esok lusa hari kita.manusia mana tak melakukan kesilapan?sedang kan Nabi memaafkan umat (sebenarnya nak cakap Ramadhan dah nak dekat).Nabi Muhammad S.A.W pun paling banyak bersedekah di bulan Ramadhan...apa kata kita orang-orang johor sedekahkan kemaafan dekat dia.bukan menambah dosa mencaci hina.

"terlajak perahu boleh di undur.terlajak kata.."

Assalamualaikum.

CIKGU IZATI.

semalam borak dengan kakak.Agus 1 tarikhnya.bicara soal dia yang hendak pergi interview rabu ini di tanjung keling..heh.hebat..dah grad.dah nak pergi interview.dah nak jadi cikgu dalam erti kata cikgu.

cerita soal pilihan tempat mengajarnya.pantas aku mengusul pendalaman.endau.mukah.sipadan malah.dia bilang.setuju.yalah..mahu kata tidak setuju.nanti dikata tak layak jadi cikgu.eh.teringat dulu.selepas spm.ada beberapa pilihan di tangan.matrikulasi.maktab.universiti.heh.mentah-mentah aku tolak.mentah-mentah aku kata tidak untuk 'cikgu' pada emak.dalam kepala cuma terbayang kerusi.marker yang akan melayang ke muka anak murid kalau aku mengajar.ye. aku emo.aku panas baran.aku tak tahan karenah tak paham2 kanak2.

kemudian kakak aku mengikut jejak kakak aku yang lagi satu.memilih pendidikan.heh.aku tak sinis.syukur malah..kakak ku garang.tapi berhemah.ciri-ciri cikgu cemerlang.tapi...ada yang kami bualkan..kami tak searah..kakak ku kata.pendidikan.mendidik harus berciri dua hala.guru dan anak murid.anak murid harus ada sikap ingin tahu.dan belajar sesuatu.lain murid.lain cara pendekatan. (kami bicara soal murid lemah dan bijaksana).aku kata," eh mana boleh,cikgu tu sendiri harus menganggap semua murid tu kosong"sama rata.sama bicara.kalau cikgu beza-beza pendekatan.itu dah kira bias.tak adil.(sekejap aku terlupa adil itu meletak sesuatu pada tempatnya)namun terus aku di hentam 'tula kau tak belajar prnsip2 pendidikan'..pulak..aku di bahas, di tujah dengan nas2 pendidikan nya.baik aku menyerah.ya, dulu Imam Ghazali sampai dirompak untuk mencari ilmu.sekarang murid malah disuap-suap oleh cikgu.pensyarah.wikipedia.google.bak kata Astro."macam2 ada"

ok habis cerita.

tapi hari itu aku terbaca.(sudah lama)di ruang aduan surat khabar sisipan.seorang graduan mengikut kursus KPLI marah2.bentak2.duit elaun nya tak masuk2.eh aku fikir.niat kau sebenarnya apa?mengejar wang ringgit nikmat menjadi cikgu di bawah naungan kerajaan berdaulat?atau mengajar bakal anak2 murid masa depan negara.yeah.bilang la ayat aku macam apa2 aje.tapi kau pun jangan lupa..aku bicara benar.kalau tak ada yang tua.yang muda tak akan ada.tapi.sungguh ni encik.priority kau di mana?dulu.waktu mintak..bukan kau yang bersungguh kata.pendidikan ini kecintaan kau.kau sanggup buat apa saja bergolok gadai demi bergelar cikgu.sekarang?kau bentak2 pulak elaun kau tak masuk.

eh encik saya nak tanya elaun tu nanti kau buat apa?

aku tahu bukan semua habis di buku.BOHONG.tapi kau buat shopping.buat beli baju.buat belanja kekasih di hari jadi.(aku tahu kakak aku pun banyak baju cantik.baju buat pergi mengajar katanya.konon.bukan buat melaram??.tapi setidaknya dia guna duit pinjaman.akan dilunas nanti ikut jerih perihnya mengajar) ini kau guna elaun.yang tujuannya mengajar kau erti dunia.itu pun kau nak kepohkan?tak tahu bersyukur atau apa.zakat ada.duit lebihan semester lepas mana?

eh encik priority kau di mana?

IKHLAS lah.TOLONG.

(**lagi sebab aku menolak cadangan mendaftar di KPLI)

mungkin aku kolot.mungkin aku silap.tapi berdosa ke aku menganggap cikgu tu mulia?mendoakan yang sejahtera untuk cikgu2 nya?aku tipu kalau tak pernah tersinggung atas teguran cikgu.aku tipu kalau tak pernah mengata cikgu.tapi tetap..itu semua terdorong akibat ketaksuban aku atas perasaan mulia nya seorang 'cikgu'.memang mereka tak perfect.mereka manusia biasa.eh kukira kau tahu.cikgu tu role model.contoh kepada anak muridnya.kalau tak mana bisa wujud frasa 'jika hari ini seorang perdana menteri berkuasa'

maka harus lah.WAJIB mungkin.kau jaga tertib mu.dulu dulu kalau timbul masalah.orang ramai merujuk kepada cikgu.merujuk kepada polis.cikgu2 dipandang mulia.sekarang?eh?cubaan merogol anak murid..apa kau dah gila?macam itu ku harus panggil kau 'cikgu'??selayaknya kau campak je diri dlam gaung biar dibaham harimau.binatang!

ini pemikiran ku.dunia sempitku.aku juga tidak mengata semua bakal cikgu.aku mengata sekelompok kecil..yang bakal jadi barah.dalam darah bangsa Malaysia..

Cikgu Izati,kakak.teman.pelindung saya.

"ikhlas lah.mengajar demi Allah.tegakkan yang Haq,lupuskan yang Batil..anak murid tu amanah.kalau kau kau pecah amanah.apa kesannya?kalau arkitek,engineer,akauntan mungkin masuk penjara.kau mungkin kena jawab dekat sana.haa baik jadi aku terima hukum dunia.heheh.eh siyes ni TI.jaga amanah tu baik-baik"

aku tahu aku x boleh cakap "apa nak jadi kat Malaysia 2050 nanti" kat kau pasni dah,,sebab sistem pendidikan nak dapat kau.cikgu berkaliber.. :)

selamat menyebar idesme2 baru DUNIA GLOBAL dari kampung kecil selatan Malaysia.