Jahil

pernah tak rasa,
nak mencarut tapi rasa berdosa.
nak beri sms tapi rasa berdosa tak beri salam?

apa rasa jadi jahil celik mata celik telinga?

apa rasa jadi tongkat menongkah ke depan,

dipukul dilipat si buta?

apa rasa jadi baik?

duduk senyap.salah,

duduk bising.dikata,

dunia.left right.

simple yet intrigued,disastrous ey?

peluh rintik-rintik nak istiqamah.

payah.siapa kata senang?

TEATER MARHAEN.

men are the most complicated creature in this whole world.I SWEAR.

yesterday, i had a conversation with one of my best man (eh perempuan ada best man ke?haha),
and man...what's wrong with you guys?
we girls are not a commodity.
and you cant referring us to other girl like we are just another of your guy friends.
yes sure we are two different persons.different personalities.different lifestyle.
but we share a common hormones.PLEASE.

okay.i might be exaggerating.
kembali ke situasi NORMAL.
by NORMAL, i mean,DRAMA,TEATER MARHAEN kita..

bila saya kata bertunang itu renyah.consume masa.membazirkan uang.
lebih mudah kahwin di pejabat kadi sahaja (note : not the 'kami kena cekup khalwat maka kena kahwin sekarang' kind of wedding) but yeah.just a simple, really simple solemnization ceremony where all i should do just say 'i do', followed by a simple kenduri doa selamat...(ala-ala menikah oversea gitu)...saya dikata sebagai terlalu dipengaruh barat.too much little black dress books he thought.westerner katanya.dah belajar tinggi (tinggi lah sangat...) taknak pegang adat melayu lagi.bertunang tu kan adat nenek moyang.lebih sopan.another step to secure the girl u want heh..what the what???fine...

when i ask, the 'hantaran' for his respective significant other
he said, "adalah dalam (sekian-sekian),ok lah tu.kenduri kampung mana telan ribu-riban,grad diploma..ok lah tu kan?kan?"
to which i replied "so okaylah kalau aku nak mintak 18k untuk hantaran aku?"
"asal lak?"
"yela, aku grad (isi tempat kosong), aku pandai (isi skill orang puang), aku boleh (isi skill orang puang), and i can hand washed the whole family clothes (consist 15 pax) single handedly."
"kau ingat kau siti nurhaliza?erra fazira?MATERIALISTIK."
"wey,anak (isi tempat kosong), tu kerja (isi tempat kosong) pun dapat 15k tauu." (provok untuk meniup api)
"tu anak orang..lawa,putih,gebu.engkau! (okay.masukkan F word disini) tula kau,hantaran ni lazim je kau tau tak,yang wajib tu mas kahwin..belajar tinggi.sampai darjah khas, tu pun taktau (again.pfttt)"
"dah tu bertunang tu bukan lazim ke?adat?melayu katanya??"
him,facepalm.

okay.i might be exaggerating.

kembali ke situasi NORMAL.

by NORMAL, i mean,life,my normal life..

sekarang,saya baru discover salah satu kebolehan saya ialah kemahiran memprovok.(memprovok??) hahaha.

i ask my abah once, about how much hantaran he would ask if he were to marry me to man i choose.

to which he replied "abah bukan nak jual anak abah.."

suddenly i felt not all men are complicated, they just haven't reach my dad's phase of life yet..(camharomm grammar kau yen) 

note : musim mengawan kan sekarang?letih la kawan nak jawab takde calon.kawan nak sambung belajar lagi.paham tak?paham tak?? <------ (motip sangat nak isytihar takde calon.heh)

reminder.

since i've been a...........(lupa.)

okay.kena ambik ikan, kismis, badam banyak-banyak lagi ( T_________T)

.

Apalah diharap pada nama?
Kalau hati tak bahagia?

Apalah diharap pada kagum?
kalau hati sesak bilang kesal?

Apalah diharap pada cita.
Kalau hati lupa tujuan asal..

Apalah arti hidup,
Kalau percuma jadi lacuran.

Apalah arti mati,
Kalau meruntun nasib diri.

Degup-degup berdiri lagi
plap-plap aku lari.
Kosong
mungkin cuma entiti.
Hapus ditiup angin
dibawa pergi.

ingat tak..zaman facebook baru buka?baru bertapak?baru nak up?
ehh..i remember those day...macam nak gelak je..friend list pun 102 orang sahaja.kah2.lawak

okay.ini.buat saya tersenyum.tentang memori facebook.

i wrote this note called 20 things about me you ought to know "on Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 3:28am"
(pakai caption facebook siap)..haha.

so here

20 things about me you ought to know...

Rules: Here's my "20 things" list. If I tagged you, you are supposed to write a note with 20 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you

1.people always think i am a 'good girl'.eh no lah..u think u know me?no u dont!

2.i once do street dance at penang..sume kawan2 pon terkejot.haha x percaye lah tu i leh wat solo dance..see..i told u..u dont know me..i love to dance!!

3.saye xleh pakai anting-anting sebab xde tindik hehe

4.mase form five..saya pernah panjat pokok pelam situated between my prep class and dining aspura..then ada plak seorang aspura nampak..(eh dua sebenarnya haha tapi sorang je yang i ingat-his name is ilham)
phew wat malu jer haha

5.i love to read.saya boleh habiskan novel satu dua inci dalam beberapa jam saja..(x cye?tye la membe2 i tuu)

6.saye pernah menang tempat kedua dalam pertandingan menulis cerpen sempena bulan kemerdekaan anjuran perpustakaan sultan ismail pada tahun 2005.haha got money prizes heh..jangan mare

7.pernah tido dalam kelas and cikgu masukkan kapur dalam hidung..haha..(when i was in standard two)

8.i love chess but i dont excel on it

9.i ada myspace account

10.i love my friends so much that i put them first,then my boyfriend...(patut la sume ex boyfriend i lari haha)

11.anak-anak sdare call me cik yan..

12.i love cute things.comics.chocolates and coins=)

13.membawa motor TANPA LESEN MEMANDU di sebuah negri beribu kilometer jauh dari negri asal motor itu

14.people dont see me as somebody who know perang teluk tu berlaku pada 1990 antara negara iraq dan iran..

15.my dad..is my hero..and my hair is curl=)..u know..(i got it from my mama)

16.my brothers (i have 4 brothers eh..) treat me like i'm still 10 years old

17.x boleh hidup tanpa sambal..

18.i know politik la weyh...

19.what colour do i like?i love colourful=)

20.siyes..aku pelik..

memori cinta luka betol.hehe

dah lah.bai.

Assalamualaikum =)

Perincian Kayu

few, got nightmares because of this freakin drawing.

he.he.he.

(tak lawak langsung)

dah bai.

Assalamualaikum :)